The hardest part of changing my habits, is my tendency to want to revert back at any minor step back.
Never mind that I succeed on 95% of them, it is the remaining 5% that gets me.
Lately, I've been working on not being so judgmental. Sometimes I think I always liked the X-Men because they were outsiders and I can relate. But does feeling like an outsider come from actually being an outsider or from selectively secluding yourself. I think it is a fine line. I'm comfortable with being an individual but I am not always successful at not judging others for not being.
It is an uphill battle. You go a day taking all of your vitamins, drinking water, taking walks, but if you hold on to anger or fear or hatred, you are still poisoning yourself.
I don't necessarily mean to be so reflective on Mondays, I want these posts to also be an inspiration for other people reading them. But I think sometimes it is inspirational to hear honesty about the work that goes into changing.
Caffeine Update: A setback related to caffeine taught me an important lesson. I was going full stream, not drinking it, being super proud, when I hit a wall. I hit it full stream, full speed, and left a beth-shaped dent in it. I drank some caffeine (healthier options of it at least) and proceeded to feel miserable about it. But I was asking myself to be superhuman, when sometimes, I can need to accept I am just human. Being human should be something I am proud of and I am back on track now.
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